even though i hate politics....

As much as I hate politics, I hate people-bashing more.... that includes people bashing the president.

Here are a few things as I see them.

1. All authority is God given. **Edit: I found the verse in Romans 13!**While I couldn't exactly find a verse that says just that in the good Book, I've heard it several times. We are each entitled to our opinions, but we should not go as far as to rebel. Yes, I don't agree with everything our president is doing, but that doesn't mean that I'm going to tell him to "go to hell." God placed him in that position and I will do all in my power to show him the respect the office deserves. We have to remember as citizens that he cannot please 100% of the population, but we should encourage and pray for him to do what is right and what is God's will. How many of us actually do that though? How many of us lead a large number (as in more than five million) of people?
2. For God so loved the world. So many times, Americans forget there's a world outside the U.S. I know that I've watched the news in the past and thought and this matters because???? Shouldn't we see the war-torn countries as a part of God's heart? He didn't send Yeshua just for the "good Americans" but for Fidel Castro and Saddam Hussein and even *gasp* Osama Bin Laden! Wouldn't it make sense that He would care for them, too? Seriously! God has given me a heart for those who don't know Him and my desire is that each and every one of the people I meet will see a glimpse of His heart for the world as a whole, not just for "people like me."
3. We need to pray. Look at 1 Timothy 2:1-2. I can't tell you how many times the good Book tells us to pray. Pray for our enemies, pray for the authorities, pray in thanksgiving, pray in all things, etc. Instead of complaining about how bad the president, or what ever authority, is, we need to pray for them. Like i said in point 1, it's not easy leading an entire nation.

I'm sure if it weren't 0130 i could write more, but considering it is the wee hours of the morning.... Anyways. I usually try to avoid politics. It leads to a heated discussion for many people. But i saw someone complaining about something the President had done, and it made me mad. I don't get mad, but i wanted to chime in and basically tell this person "When you lead a nation of several million people, you can complain all you want to about the policies being made." Power corrupts, that much is true. Despite our best efforts, we will fail the more power we're given because we are fallible --- we fall. I know that Yeshua got mad at the temple, but he also said "Give to Caesar what is Caesar" and we forget that so many times... When he got mad, it wasn't at the Roman Empire that ruled over him, but the religious leaders who were turning the temple, the place of worship, into a den of robbers.

It's ok to be upset, but at the same time, I don't think griping about our president is going to change anything. Why not gripe about what we can change --- ourselves.

Don't break my heart...

I hate being tenderhearted. Truly, I hate it. For one, approximately seven hours ago, a man shot multiple people on a military base. When I heard about it, I texted B and told him i wanted to go there. I see people hurting and I want to be with them and help them.

And yet, I can't. First off, I don't know anyone at Fort Hood. I know someone at Fort Bliss, and Fort Riley, and I'm sure several other bases around the world, but not at Ft. Hood. I have class tomorrow so I can't go tonight.

And it sucks. This happens all the time.

Dern it!

A new adventure!

At the advise of a trusted professor, I applied for a non-paying "internship" nearer to my boyfriend. I had an interview and was accepted all within the last 48 hours and it hit me. I'm scared. I'm afraid I'll fall flat on my face or I'll get there and they'll say "sorry... *she* got here first."

I keep telling myself these fears are stupid. Besides I know someone bigger than my fears!!!

So I tell my boyfriend that it looks like I'll be living about half an hour away. He's excited and he continues to encourage me. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve such an amazing man in my life! And to think, it all happened when I wasn't looking! (Thank you, Yeshua!)

I can't pinpoint exactly what B has done, but I do know that my dreams are important to him, and let me tell you, I'm a dreamer... I dream big. When it comes to dreams, no dream is too small or big... althought sometimes I do dream crazy. At one point in time I wanted to be a pediatric oncologist who worked on a Mercy Ship until I realized a few things...

A) I can't do oncology because I'm too tenderhearted. I'd cry every day because I can't save everyone from the effects of cancer. Heck, I can't even be a doctor. People die everyday, and I can't do anything to stop them.
B) I'm a *home* body. I transferred universities partially because I was too homesick.... (which is going to make this internship interesting because I can't just go home on weekends)
C) eventually, i realized that it wasn't a dream for me. Yeah.... someone out there may have that dream, and more power to them, but man, I'd be emotionally and spiritually exhausted after a couple of days doing that.... Just imagine a couple of months.

A more recent dream has been to be a Rachel Saint... to devote my life to one people group for the rest of my life. Do you realize that "missions" has become less long term and more short term? What about the people you befriend while you're over whereever? What happens to them when you leave after being there a couple of weeks? a couple of months? While it is easier to keep in touch with people you meet through various online resources, it's ridiculous to believe that you can actually develop much of a meaningful relationship solely online! First of all, so much is lost just on the phone! You lose the facial and body language and have to depend on what you hear and what you remember about the person to whom you're speaking. Now put that online or in text messages. While you see the words of the person, you don't hear them and you don't see them. Don't get me wrong.... I text and use online communication a lot. I prefer face to face because there's a lot more for people to laugh at, especially if I'm attempting to walk straight (I fall ALL the time! One time, I fell up the stairs and my lemonade literally bit the dust, but I still got my sammie thanks to the invention of FOIL!) but i'm not opposed to texting or online. That's how my boyfriend and I keep in touch when we aren't within minutes of each other. So back to that dream... It hasn't changed much, really. I still desire to be devoted to one people group and develop friendships with them. It's a beautiful thing, really, friendships.

Another one of my dreams has been to open up a bed and breakfast (probably in europe, not gonna lie) for personal business and also allow people who need to take a retreat from their life in the field for a weekend or two to have a place where it's safe, that they can be away from the stressors of their life. This one is a little more like a pipe dream and may not happen. I'm ok with that.

So I'm a dreamer. And my boyfriend supports me.

And I have my "dream" internship.

I'm pretty sure if life got any better, I'd explode. How did i get to be so blessed