"The time has come, the walrus said...."

I'm sitting in the library attempting to work on homework. I say attempting because there are a number of factors preventing me from working.

The first is my lack of personal computer. If i had one I probably wouldn't be online because it takes too much effort to log on to the internet through the campus wifi, whereas if i'm on the library computer all i have to do is log in and click on the little blue e button. I am in the process of getting it back, but it's getting even more long and drawn out... But i'm hopeful!

The second is that i'm in this little room off the religion section of this library and there's a basketball guy on the next computer talking to a socer girl. Kind of sort of ANNOYING!!!

and third -- I don't feel motivated. I don't wanna write seven more pages for this book that i haven't completely read (oops! don't tell my professor!) It's interesting and all but i'm so completely distracted that i can't work on it. PLUS i felt like writing... Go ahead and embrace it because after the novelty wears off it won't be as frequent or even as interesting. At least that's what's happened in the past with my million blogs.

But to the meat of the issue, of why I'm writing... I just got done with a weekly lunch meeting with other ministerial students. We spoke of church and state... and of course i had an opinion i wanted to share and when I was halfway done with a statement, someone would interrupt and it drove me insane! I can't tell you why it drove me insane though. In other situations, if a similar thing were to occur, i wouldn't get mad. And then to add to this, the professor at my table didn't seem to understand what was being said. He's a very traditional Southern Baptist with a slightly more liberal view toward certain issues, but he won't change his mind very easily. My argument in this debate is that you cannot separate the two completely. The reason it started was to keep the state out of the church business, ie no political campaigns from the pulpit. But you cannot separate your beliefs from who you are. I'm not saying that public prayer in school needs to be reinstated, but rather that the government shouldn't have as much control over what the church can and cannot do. As a society, i think we'd do better if we, as the church, met the social, physical and spiritual needs of the community, and the state, the government, were left to the justice system. Also, we should be so offended if someone makes a ruling for religiousl rights. That's really all i have.

And now that's out of my system, i think i'll return to my wonderful world of academia and write more than a page or two in my book report.

a new beginning

I had an older blog... actually I had several, and i just chose not to update it often, so I decided to start fresh. I am not guaranteeing that this blog will be amazingly well kept, but it's new... it's novel, and I'm looking forward to updating it, at least for now. Seeing that this is my last semester in undergraduate study, i'm looking forward to getting off into the working world, and embracing what life throws my way.

Speaking of the future, i have a lot of hopes and dreams. Some of these are silent prayers that only my Beloved hears, others are dreams for the kingdom that I willingly share with anyone. I don't know what tomorrow holds. I'm being challenged to keep up with today as it! Hopefully one day these dreams will apparate and become a reality, and that my Beloved will help me to realize many other dreams. I'm a dreamer, and I don't want that to change, because world movements often started with change.

I'm constantly being challenged at school. There's one person who seems to see right through me and challenges me regularly. I think of it like silly putty... he's allowing me to grow, to be kneaded by my Beloved until i'm just right. I know he's not trying to make me snap, but he's allowing me to realize my limits by almost pushing me to that point, but allowing me to back up and say "uhhhhhhhhh....." I enjoy challenges. Nothing in life worth having ever comes easy.

So here I am, almost 24... in my 11th semester of undergraduate study. Part of me wonders why i didn't stay an elementary education major because I'd be done by now... but then a part of me screams at myself saying "You know, you hated the early mornings, you didn't enjoy classes, and let's not get started on the dress code!!! you couldn't even dress very professionally or cute... you would rather be in a t-shirt and jeans. THIS ISN'T FOR YOU!" So i'm not an education major, I'm a religion major, a bible major, a theology/ministry student. I enjoy classes and if I absolutely needed to, i could go to class in my PJs and not worry. I normally don't. Actually, i think the last time i did that was maybe my freshman or sophomore year at BIG U. I transferred to lil u and life is grand.

Speaking of BIG U!!! My boyfriend graduated from there. Is it stranged that we've been dating for over a month and I still have a hard time calling him my BOYFRIEND??? It doesn't hurt that we were really good friends before we started dating. My freshman year, actually, I played Halo at his apartment with a bunch of other guys. I was usually the only girl and did I mind? not really... I have a tendency to make friends with guys easier than making friends with girls, not that i don't have friends of my same gender. I can name several. Anyways, I had a crush on him my freshman year when we went to Long John Silver's, but nothing ever happened. We were just good friends, and then we got reconnected this summer. He moved away from BIG U after he graduated because he couldn't find work, even though a lot of our friends still live there. After about three years of being kinda sorta out of contact, we got reconnected through Twitter. Yes, I tweet. Actually, many of my tweets are random and comical, but back to the story... I went to an innercity ministry near his home and he met up with me for dinner and some amazingness that is Star Trek. A mutual friend got wind of this and started to nudge at him... "You like her, admit it!" kind of nudging. I was perfectly oblivious and went through most of the summer excited that i got to see him, old feelings completely shoved aside, but acknowledged nonetheless and then I publish a tweet about centipedes and lock jaw and he was intrigued and decided he must see this said centipede and the science museum. I tried not getting my hopes up too high, thinking he was coming up as a friend. We'd already said we'd see harry potter together, and so I just got excited about that. Well, somewhere between harry potter and ihop he gathers up the nerve to ask me out. I said yes, and now we are dating, but 6 hours apart. It's not always easy, but what distance relationship is? I find myself growing closer to him and to my Beloved and all is right with the world. He's a wonderful, nerdy guy, who love my Beloved as well. I can't imagine a more wonderful guy!!! I mean seriously! This guy, the boyfriend is AMAZING!!! I think even the family approves... and that's something new to me completely.

and i'm completely ready to embrace this new adventure.